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haven't posted in a couple of days.. why? there are a number of reasons why i haven't been posting entries like being too lazy to type, lots of things to do, not in the mood, etc etc.. last week sobrang badtrip ako sa mga nangyayari, kaya madalas naglalaro ako ng mga games para hinde ko maisip mga problema ko kahit papano.. ang nagiisang magandang nangyari lang sa akin nung pumunta kami ng cebu, kahit 2 days lang kami dun enjoy pa din kami.. haaaaaaay.. sana maging ok ang linggo na toh, hinde katulad last week na puro problema..

di ko na alam..

sigh.. di ko alam kung baket pero tuwing gabi wala akong gana na gumawa ng kahit ano.. [ in short depressed.. weird noh? hehe ] so yun, nagsimula to nung monday ata? or saturday? ewan! haha yung para bang pakiramdam mo na may kulang pero hinde mo alam kung anu yun.. soundtrip, mag-ikot sa village, text, may tinawagan sa fone, basketball, pati inom ng konti, wala pa din epekto.. isa nalang naiisip ko na rason kung baket ako nagkakaganito, pero hinde din sigurado na yun nga yung kelangan ko gawin.. haaaaaaay..

oh mai gee haha

grabe 2 days na puro lakad haha sobrang onti lang oras ko para magpahinga, siguro mga 5hrs lang tapos may lakad ulit. [ galeng noh? haha ] kahit nakakapagod ayus lang, masaya naman lahat eh. haha lalo na kahapon nung kumain barkada ko sa sbarro! walang nakaubos ng in-order bwahahaha mga pizza slice kalahati lang naubos, ganun din sa mga spag at lasagna! haha tapos nung gabi naman naginuman sa bahay ng kaibigan ko, kaya dun na din kami natulog >:) haha haaay tapos may part2 naman, yung sa isa kong kabarkada naman magcelebrate, ayus! ibang mall naman hahaha

sa mga bumati sa akin kanina salamat ng marami =D hehe

oh noes!!

grabeng weekend yan 4-days!! haha dahil sa bagyo nawalan ng pasok nung thurs tsaka fri, nabawasan pa tuloy ipon ko ng P500. haha thurs nagsimula, walang kuryente, walang magawa, kaya buong araw tulog ako [ at least nahabol ko na yung mga araw na wala ako halos tulog haha ]. friday nagkaroon na ng kuryente pero walang cable soooo balewala tv ko, pero kahit ala pa cable masaya kasi inde mainit! wooooooooo~ nung sat naman sa gabi lang narestore lahat dito sa bahay kuryente, cable, inet. kanina naman panay download lang ng mga kanta sa limewire haha [ muntik pako magkaroon ng virus dahil dun >_> ]. na-download ko din DoA kanina, ang ganda ni helena!! woooot~ hahaha ganda ng mga locations, special effects nung nagsimula na yung tournament, etc etc. tapos ngayon naman nalaman ko na deactivated na sun ko!! waaaaaaaaaaah dami ko pa naman hinihintay na text dun sa sim na yun! amf.. so magipon muna ako para dun ulit tsaka para din sa isa pang fone para sa sun sim. hehe medyo marami akong pinagiipunan ngayon tulad ng fee para sa gym, sky cable [ yah personal line sa kwarto ko haha ], new fone, new sun sim, pc upgrades, mga damit, etc etc. mahirap magipon pero makakaraos din!! sana haha

watta day -___-

grabe ang araw na toh.. nung umaga ang sama ng gising ko, sobrang sakit ng ulo ko kasi mga 12 nako nakatulog tapos gising ko mga 430 ng madaling araw [ saya noh? haha ].. pagdating sa CSB para sa 7am class ko inde dumating prof namin, edi parang pumunta ako ng school ng sobrang aga para sa wala.. 2nd class [ comsk2x aka research class ] dapat magreport kami kanina pero hinde pa din nadating si xave kasi nasa kanya yung report namin, buti nalang nakalimutan ng prof namin na magrereport kami kanina [ phew close call haha ]! edi next class ordev-a isa pang sobrang boring na subject, kahit papano hinde ako nakatulog sa klase na yun kasi dami ako nakausap. haha next class history boom! tulog ako sa upuan ko! hahaha parang review lang kasi ng 3rd year lessons namin sa HS eh, so madali lang yun. last class gepsych natulugan ko din! pero ayus lang, bait naman ng prof eh bihira magcheck ng attendance tapos ok lang sakanya na malate ka basta andun ka ok na. after nun diretso nako umuwi kasi sobrang inaantok na talaga ako haha


emo? of course!! sa lahat ba naman ng klase ko either may kamukha siya sa klase ko or kapangalan niya! para bang ayaw ako payagan na kalimutan siya.. kaya medyo hirap din ako, kasi di ko na alam gagawin ko.. kung dapat ko ba gawin to o wag nalang, yung mga ganun na tanong.. haaaaaaaaaaaaaay

it hurts..

this week's one of the worst one that i've ever lived through since i entered college. why? because some things got so screwed up that it made me lose interest in a lot of things. but what happened last wednesday was the worst. i was supposed to meet someone at the lrt station near csb in the afternoon around 330pm. i was sooooo excited about it because i haven't seen her for at least 3months. so i texted her at the time we were supposed to meet, when it was already time i texted her if she was still coming or not. so i waited for her reply [ at least 20-25mins ] so i stayed there eating merienda. then i got her reply saying that she won't be going after all. when i read that i was speechless, it's like i was waiting for nothing. while on my way home it got me thinking. "if i didn't ask her that then i'd probably be standing there waiting for nothing for a long time. she could've at least told me that she couldn't come earlier, i mean it's not that hard to text isn't it?" on that day i was sad and angry at the same time. i was sad because i didn't see her, and angry 'cause she didn't even bother telling me a little earlier that she can't come and i had to wait at the lrt. in short nagmukha akong tanga, naghihintay sa wala. grabe gusto ko magalit pero inde ko mapilit sarili ko kasi inde ko kaya. nung gabi naman i had a dream, and it was about her again! after 3months of not seeing each other made me say that i was over her [ easier said than done ] but i wasn't. talked to my friends about this and they said the same things " tsong, you still have feelings for her." so it got me thinking again, i tried to get it out of my mind by playing DotA with jason and his friends but sadly it wasn't taken out of my head. so now i won't be able to sleep that well because of it. in short the 1st week of classes turned from good, to bad, then worse! and it really hurts.. to be stood up by the person you were waiting for is one of the most painful things you can experience in life..

haaaayz

since last week a lot of things have happened, both good and bad things. as you all know CSB started 2nd Term earlier than DLSU-Main, which is bad 'cause it was a friday >_> . they could've moved it to monday though, but they didn't! -__- anyway last week was pretty hectic for me, had to do a lot of things, go to different places and stuff like that. but the orientation that was held last thursday was fun, why? because i saw a childhood friend of mine that i haven't seen for 10+ years, met new friends and familiarized with my new school. and just yesterday me and my friends went out to watch You, Me and Dupree which was really funny 'cause we were laughing non-stop! Beijing Bang Bang! those who watched that movie knows what i'm talking about. =P i won't mention the bad things that happened 'cause thinking about it won't do me any good. right now i'm kinda messed up. for sometime now i've been having the same dreams over and over again. and it's about the girl that i love so much until now. and it's kinda hard for me to hide my feelings because if i push it too hard we might lose the friendship we made through the years and i don't want that to happen, and at the same time i don't want to let it go just like that. i know i should just let it go but it's hard for me to do so. everytime i try to think about something else somehow her name always pops up in my mind. well, only time can tell what will happen next. but right now, the only thing i can do is wait for my time.


*I'm here without you, but you're still with me in my dreams..